My depression is gone although I am still a little "sensitive" when things
don't go my way. I remember Val saying that when I cleared RT3 my depression would just
disappear suddenly and that's what happened! I have to say that there were MANY dark days
when I used to beg my husband to shoot me, I was so sick. When I did not want to get out
of bed because there was nothing to look forward to, when the days just went on and on and
on. I NEVER think that way anymore.
No more air hunger, no more sinking feeling, no more anxiety or panic, my heart palps
have lessened considerably. I can drive myself anywhere I want to go WITHOUT my husband! I
actually had enough energy to have a Christmas Party this year. I can get up early and, if
I have company, I can stay up late. All the time I am walking further and further
(farther?). I am going to finally start riding my new bike and adding in light exercising.
The bad thing is that while I was sick I was VERY strict on my low carb diet but now
that I feel good I am eating whatever I want and I have noticed that I ache all over now
and I believe that is from reintroducing grains and sugar to my diet. I am going to stop
eating that stuff again. IT IS NOT WORTH IT! At least I know now what had caused that in
the past so I know what to do. I have lost 40 pounds in the past year and now can wear
My sinus problems and awful dryness have gone. I have also learned how many people
really care about me. So many people have told me they were praying for me, that they
missed me, how much they counted on my uplifting spirit BEFORE I got sick and how happy
they are that I am well. I knew this from my friends but these are neighbors and
acquaintances. I had no idea!
I felt like you do. I was crazy squirrely when I first got on the group. I drove Val,
Diane and Patty crazy but I am so thankful they stuck it out with me. I could not see that
I might feel better. I thought it was the end and I'd never be happy or productive or fun
or creative again. I thought I would never smile again. (or sleep or breathe normally).
A couple of weeks ago I noticed that my eyebrows were sticking out all over the place and I thought it was some old lady thing and it was irritiating me that I had to trim them when I realized....MY EYEBROWS WERE GROWING BACK IN! Now I am excited to have wild eyebrows. It is all in your PERSPECTIVE.
I also notice that all of the little detail things that used to happen to me that I
would post, freaking out about another symptom, those things didn't really matter in the
grand scheme of things. I drove myself nuts with little details and symptoms. I think this
is part of the adrenal thing. It makes you hyper-alert and hyper-sensitive to every
I am trying to remember everything. I was afraid all of the time. Everything would
scare me. My mind would never shut off, especially at night, it would just go on and on
with songs, conversations I had or should have had, endless scary thoughts. Everything
seemed sad, I could not have a positive thought. That is all gone now. Oh yeah, the
numbness in different parts of my body. Sometimes I get it once in a while but it used to
be my hands, feet, toes, sides of my arms, bridge of my nose, my ears............YECCH!!!!
I hope this helps you all. You don't think you will get well but you will. I never
really believed Val because of how sick I was but she will keep encouraging you even
though it must be really difficult for her sometimes. She is amazingly patient. Diane and
Patty were too. I am so thankful now for my life!!!!